I Dont Get It

[fcukmy318i]

The way it goes – not sure how many of you are cooks or like to cook but I guess it is my background when I cook I cook – baked camembert, herb & lemon spatchcock

Cooking is loving; and you can tell the warmth of someone’s heart by what they do in the kitchen – I am not saying food it the way to my heart is isn’t but there is so much love that goes into it.

Have you ever kneaded bread standing behind your man your arm under his and you’re both just kneading the doe – it’s warm – it’s caring, there is a passion about it.

Generally everything seems to happen in the kitchen or around the table – and I guess naturally so – unfortunately they are not always the best things to happen.

Which is I guess what I come to – he arrives home – nothing is really that much different I have just got back from Brisbane myself after picking up the kids for the weekend – I have two, one boy and a girl.

And we eat dinner we are sitting down watching TV, the kids have just fallen asleep and all of a sudden a single tear falls out of his eye – I look at it and I ask what’s wrong – he just goes I am sorry I can’t do this anymore – I love you but I am not in love with you. I need to find myself, I am going home.

And with those words two years walks out the door.

WTF

[Christian Taylor]

so that's it? that's how it ended? i can't even imagine ending a friendship that way.

the funny thing about relationships is that at any time one half of the bond could decide it wants something else. and that's it. i find it so amusing that we build our lives on models that are so unstable, that could end at any moment, that are so thoroughly our of our control.

i wouldn't give up without a fight though - or at least find out what's going on in his head. usually it's about them, not you - perhaps there's a way he can find himself and still love you as well.

it's tough. love is tough - but if you really truly love someone you have to want them to be happy, you have to set them free and let them be who and what they want/need to be. that is real love. that's the only kind of love there is. sure it will hurt you, and if it's too hard you can choose not to be there - but that is real love.

tough situation. hope you are okay.

as for the cooking - i am not a person who cooks at all. but if i had someone to cook for that might be different. making a meal isn't really that exciting when there's only an audience of one!

[taylor-dayne]

why don't you bake him something full of laxatives? that way you get to feed your passion for cooking AND revenge.

[fcukmy318i]

MMM; someone in the gold coast area come kick in my head please; I deserve a beating.

Sunday I took the kids home – and spend the afternoon with my sis and we had an awesome afternoon but I just had to do it I called to see what he was up to and I went there we watched TV and he made some crackers and stuff and it was ok – a lil emotional.

At 10.30 I left and went home, which is in the same street so I walked to the next complex; OMG close for comfort….cry – anys I masturbated and went to sleep, woke up at 5 and masturbated again and went to work, drove along the beachfront and planned to have a great day.

Monday – At work all day…thinking a lil about it because I still just don’t get it.

Left work at 2.30 and went to vodaphone and Coles got home and masturbated.

And he called at 6ish to see what I was doing – again went to dinner and watched a movie in his room on the bed – he just dropped his pants in front of me and lay there in his jocks – teasing me making me lay there next to that – it was torture.

He was laying on this massage thing that normally goes on a chair – anys I was rubbing his leg cause he is always tense and I just started running my finger over his …. Yeah sorry not sure if I was allowed to say that in here, anys I lay there he didn’t move…he let me do that.

I started eating at it through his jocks and yeah I blew him….

OMG I am killing myself aren’t I …like I said someone come and kick my head in

[taylor-dayne]

you know - i have to say, that guy is the one who needs his head kicked in. tell him to fuck off. where's the respect for you? he does that knowing full well he'll get what he wants and then he walks away leaving you with a broken heart.

if he really cared about you he woldn't have fucked you. iu dont care what his excuses are.

[fcukmy318i]

Dont worry taylor-dayne i am starting to see that slightly