christelle69
23rd January 2012, 10:16 AM
Hi everybody,
This letter is NOT another lesbian drama bullshit, so please take it seriously and*THIS IS NOT A MANIPULATION* as well. I'm deeply in need of help here
How my nightmare began
During more than 2 months and prior to come in Sydney Katrina and I had spent more than 8 hours on Skype every day. I've made sure that everything was fine with her, asking all the possible questions, before taking the decision to leave everything in France to come to live here with her.
Then I was out to do some food shopping and when I was back I've caught her on a porn site (months later she has admitted that she has manipulated me to send me away to do her things), in itself it's nothing but the videos was straight porn and not lesbian ones. Since I know how to search on computers regardless the fact that the person delete the browsing history, I was devastated to see that she was going on sexual dating sites as well (since I arrived in Australia) especially the site Adult Friend finder, where she was searching for women AND men.
Now you know about the STRAIGHT pornography (more than 800 videos watched in 3 months, more than 200 of them were implying asian women - Katrina is asian with black men), I'm a LESBIAN I've openly say it since I'm 12 years old and YES straight pornography disgust me...
I've ask Kat why she was watching this shit during 8 months, asking her many questions EVERY day, and EVERY day she was lying to me. I've even ask her to promise on Norman's grave (her brother) if she was masturbating in front of straight porn that day, she promised she wasn't but I had the proof that she did it...How can you trust someone who spit like this on the memory of a brother?
but 4 months ago he has FINALLY admitted that she had male partners**that she's been PREGNANT and asked for abortion. Now she's constantly backing off again saying that she's a lesbian after having admitted that she's bisexual.... ALL THAT is driving me crazy...The last male she had was 6 years ago.
SHE LIED TO ME WHEN I WAS IN FRANCE, She has admitted that she had TRAPPED me, lied to me when I was in France because she was in love with me, so she lied, just in oder to HAVE ME...
IMPORTANT The way she's answering to me is weird for a lesbian: when I suspect that a guy interest her, twice she said 'Nothing can happen he's married with children" IS IT A LESBIAN ANSWER???? Why didn't she said that "I'm a lesbian it simply can't happen"...She has even said to me one day that I was "jealous" of a guy...
here come the 3 questions that needs answers in order to help me (please say what you think abut it)
Knowing everything I've just put the situation is even more confusing. She's saying that the world of sex is fascinating for her, male and female, but that " SHE NEVER FANTASIZE ABOUT MEN IN REAL LIFE (not porn), and "THAT SHE NEVER FEEL ATTRACTED TO MALES AT ALL...Does it make sense to you???
Another thing she's saying that "SHE WAS BISEXUAL IN THE PAST BUT NOT ANYMORE SINCE SHE'S WITH ME...Same thing does it make sense to you?
Last question : she has admitted that straight pornography was a turn on but as well that the penetration by a male was source of pleasure, but NOW she's saying that she never think of doing it again, that "THERE'S NOTHING THERE" referring of being turned on by males in the street or at her work. Do you think that's possible?
Thanks a lot for your future answer, I've spent the last year trying to understand if she's lying to me or if she's in denial....
This letter is NOT another lesbian drama bullshit, so please take it seriously and*THIS IS NOT A MANIPULATION* as well. I'm deeply in need of help here
How my nightmare began
During more than 2 months and prior to come in Sydney Katrina and I had spent more than 8 hours on Skype every day. I've made sure that everything was fine with her, asking all the possible questions, before taking the decision to leave everything in France to come to live here with her.
Then I was out to do some food shopping and when I was back I've caught her on a porn site (months later she has admitted that she has manipulated me to send me away to do her things), in itself it's nothing but the videos was straight porn and not lesbian ones. Since I know how to search on computers regardless the fact that the person delete the browsing history, I was devastated to see that she was going on sexual dating sites as well (since I arrived in Australia) especially the site Adult Friend finder, where she was searching for women AND men.
Now you know about the STRAIGHT pornography (more than 800 videos watched in 3 months, more than 200 of them were implying asian women - Katrina is asian with black men), I'm a LESBIAN I've openly say it since I'm 12 years old and YES straight pornography disgust me...
I've ask Kat why she was watching this shit during 8 months, asking her many questions EVERY day, and EVERY day she was lying to me. I've even ask her to promise on Norman's grave (her brother) if she was masturbating in front of straight porn that day, she promised she wasn't but I had the proof that she did it...How can you trust someone who spit like this on the memory of a brother?
but 4 months ago he has FINALLY admitted that she had male partners**that she's been PREGNANT and asked for abortion. Now she's constantly backing off again saying that she's a lesbian after having admitted that she's bisexual.... ALL THAT is driving me crazy...The last male she had was 6 years ago.
SHE LIED TO ME WHEN I WAS IN FRANCE, She has admitted that she had TRAPPED me, lied to me when I was in France because she was in love with me, so she lied, just in oder to HAVE ME...
IMPORTANT The way she's answering to me is weird for a lesbian: when I suspect that a guy interest her, twice she said 'Nothing can happen he's married with children" IS IT A LESBIAN ANSWER???? Why didn't she said that "I'm a lesbian it simply can't happen"...She has even said to me one day that I was "jealous" of a guy...
here come the 3 questions that needs answers in order to help me (please say what you think abut it)
Knowing everything I've just put the situation is even more confusing. She's saying that the world of sex is fascinating for her, male and female, but that " SHE NEVER FANTASIZE ABOUT MEN IN REAL LIFE (not porn), and "THAT SHE NEVER FEEL ATTRACTED TO MALES AT ALL...Does it make sense to you???
Another thing she's saying that "SHE WAS BISEXUAL IN THE PAST BUT NOT ANYMORE SINCE SHE'S WITH ME...Same thing does it make sense to you?
Last question : she has admitted that straight pornography was a turn on but as well that the penetration by a male was source of pleasure, but NOW she's saying that she never think of doing it again, that "THERE'S NOTHING THERE" referring of being turned on by males in the street or at her work. Do you think that's possible?
Thanks a lot for your future answer, I've spent the last year trying to understand if she's lying to me or if she's in denial....