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6th March 2009, 11:51 AM
This is a continuation of the Positive about being positive thread posted on the Bobby Goldsmith Foundation Forum.
The last two posts to this thread were:
From arturusmark1 on Thu 04 Dec, 2008 09:15 pm -
Good morning from Sydney everyone,My name is Mark and I'm constantly surprised, amazed and delighted at the strength, dignity, humility and the common thread that runs through so many people who deal with HIV on a daily basis and of course this includes friends, family and partners also.
I guess my story started some 23 years ago around the age of 22 when I had my first serious partner ( i didn't even realise i was in a relationship until about ten years ago being quite young and naive ). My partner and I were in an odd situation looking back.......although I was living with him and still managing to keep a secret life at my own home, as I wasn't out about my sexuality, we had an open relationship in the sense that we were not exclusive to each other sexually.That was normal wasn't it??
I'm going to try not to make this about all the bits and pieces in between, because that is life and HIV is only a small part of my life and who I am!
My partner just disappeared one day, I did receive a phone call from him 12 months later saying he was in Far North Queensland, as it was called at the time, but he pretty much begged me to come and visit him, but not to be scared of the changes in his looks or attitude. The call was a bit odd as HIV wasnt even in my thoughts, I just thought he didnt like me anymore and left to get away from me ( may be the start of self esteem things )?
Well i wasnt working and couldnt get there, the place he described sounded wonderfull, all he had ever wanted. I know i shouldnt do this but i use dots a lot...it helps me think. He described the wonderfull weather, the seclusion, the small place he was living in. I wasnt even thinking why did you just leave me, why are you there? Then the phone calls stopped. There was nothing for several years and the guy drifted from my mind. Then one day i received a call from a friend saying you KNEW such and such......sorry to tell you he has died from AIDS and he suggested I go and get tested. I said something like "thats very sad" and i will go and get a test!
Keeping in mind i was right into pot, speed and alcohol at the time so those wonderfull words werent taken to heart.......so i didnt go and get tested.......but my sex life continued!
Like all people with HIV this is a work in progress so I will stop now and chill out..its dinner time, chicken kiev, yummy salad and some bread! And my concentration tends to go in and out, it can be difficult sharing sometimes....think of this like a mini series...LOL
Cheers Mark!
From positron on Thu 04 Dec, 2008 11:23 pm -
Mark I hope you don’t mind I have added you as a friend. I am interested in your story and am looking forward to the next installment of your mini series.
Please continue posting by clicking on "Post a Reply" below......
The last two posts to this thread were:
From arturusmark1 on Thu 04 Dec, 2008 09:15 pm -
Good morning from Sydney everyone,My name is Mark and I'm constantly surprised, amazed and delighted at the strength, dignity, humility and the common thread that runs through so many people who deal with HIV on a daily basis and of course this includes friends, family and partners also.
I guess my story started some 23 years ago around the age of 22 when I had my first serious partner ( i didn't even realise i was in a relationship until about ten years ago being quite young and naive ). My partner and I were in an odd situation looking back.......although I was living with him and still managing to keep a secret life at my own home, as I wasn't out about my sexuality, we had an open relationship in the sense that we were not exclusive to each other sexually.That was normal wasn't it??
I'm going to try not to make this about all the bits and pieces in between, because that is life and HIV is only a small part of my life and who I am!
My partner just disappeared one day, I did receive a phone call from him 12 months later saying he was in Far North Queensland, as it was called at the time, but he pretty much begged me to come and visit him, but not to be scared of the changes in his looks or attitude. The call was a bit odd as HIV wasnt even in my thoughts, I just thought he didnt like me anymore and left to get away from me ( may be the start of self esteem things )?
Well i wasnt working and couldnt get there, the place he described sounded wonderfull, all he had ever wanted. I know i shouldnt do this but i use dots a lot...it helps me think. He described the wonderfull weather, the seclusion, the small place he was living in. I wasnt even thinking why did you just leave me, why are you there? Then the phone calls stopped. There was nothing for several years and the guy drifted from my mind. Then one day i received a call from a friend saying you KNEW such and such......sorry to tell you he has died from AIDS and he suggested I go and get tested. I said something like "thats very sad" and i will go and get a test!
Keeping in mind i was right into pot, speed and alcohol at the time so those wonderfull words werent taken to heart.......so i didnt go and get tested.......but my sex life continued!
Like all people with HIV this is a work in progress so I will stop now and chill out..its dinner time, chicken kiev, yummy salad and some bread! And my concentration tends to go in and out, it can be difficult sharing sometimes....think of this like a mini series...LOL
Cheers Mark!
From positron on Thu 04 Dec, 2008 11:23 pm -
Mark I hope you don’t mind I have added you as a friend. I am interested in your story and am looking forward to the next installment of your mini series.
Please continue posting by clicking on "Post a Reply" below......