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marky markywicz

(Virtual hug) ooow, oh its just my virtual belt buckle, phew!

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gezz71

thanx mick - you have a great year as well mate. how did your move go?

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davewb

Thanks Mick :-) Big hugs right back at ya! Sorry to hear you're not feeling well though....that time of the year for illness :-(

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robbie

What's up Mick? not well?

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robbie

Hey mick, Welcome to Same Same.. I'm sure you'll find some new mates here!

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born Toowoomba Queensland.
grew up in Toowoomba, With folks from rural back grounds, they wanted us kids to know about the bush etc. Mum toook us to our Aunts place out of town and also we would go in the truck with our dad to the sand paddock. He worked as driver for a sand and gravel company. While dad loaded the truck, we could explore and enjoy the bush. We also lived on a camping ground for a while as care takers, I spend a lot of time in the bush while living there.
Became disabled at 15y.o due to bone disorder (right hip)
At 16 family moved to a grain & cattle property near Dalby, Best 2 years of my life. Love it there, learnt a lot even thought I was very crippled up. I miss the farm heaps.
at 18, operation to fuse right hip, six months in hospital.
After all this, living in oakey and driving 50km to work back on the farm on tractors.
1985 had to stop work on farm as I could not sit for long periods any more and started to suffer with arthritis in knee and problems with my back.
1986 worked in oakey part time, retail, hated being inside.
1990 met my first love, This was the happiest time of my life. then at the end of 1990 lost my love in car accident. No one knew I was gay, no one knew about my man, greived alone and could not go to his funeral.
I thought god had already got me,becoming disabled when I was 15, I was wrong, god got me again.
The reaason I believed this.......... At school a woman who not just wore a habit, had a habit of getting at the weak kids like me, I was her prime target. she would say "God will get you, you little fat poof". I had no idea what poof was then, I guessed it wasn't something good.
I went into deep denial after loosing my man and I became a volunteer with a community group that is part of world organisation. I told no one about myself. Even though this organisation supposedly did not discriminated against any one, but If they knew they had a poofter as member, my life would have been made hell.

At 36 came out to my parents and some family. Not much changed, I still hide my sexuallity from the world and I didn't want to give up being a volunteer because I enjoyed what I did so much, but there were really bad times.
In July 2007 , after 16years, I had to resign as a volunteer, due to bulling. I found out just who my so called friends were, I trusted these people,I should not have. I also realised just how little some know or understand about depression. Trusting anyone has become a real challenge for me now.

I have become very withdrawn from the world, Yes I suffer with depression and my disability is getting worse as time goes on. I still drive, walk etc., do a bit of gardening, still love the bush ,but don't get there any more, too dangerous to go on my own.
Now taking care of my Mum when she needs me, she lives with me. She worries because I am alone.
There has been no one special in my life since 1990, I am very alone, I don't even have a close gay male friend, you know a mate. I have tried to make friends on line, but no go.
As for going out to find a friend, well there are no gay venues close around here.

I have read Adam Suttons Book, I cried and laughed and I related to so much. I wish I had he's courage. I would love to meet Adam, have a cuppa and chat and tell him I am very proud of him.

Interests

Love being outside love the bush, birdlife and animals,
, I am interested in trains especially steam and the titanic and oceanliners, some gardening and I can cook for myself or for a few others, well sort of, I taught myself to use a p, c, Like going to a movie, but not often, I enjoy a meal out, a cuppa and also a scotch n coke now and then

Favourite Things

Fave Music

at the moment a song called "dream catch me" the words have meaning to me

Fave Movies

brokeback mountain, fifth eliment, Priscilla queen of the desert, star wars (all)

Fave Books

"say it out load" (adam sutton)